My 12 weeks of maternity leave is coming to an end (sniff, sniff). I have such mixed feelings about going back to work, most of which are negative. I get teary eyed just thinking about it. I go back to work bright and early Monday morning and I am already stressing about it. I've been having nightmares about it for weeks! How am I going to be away from my baby girl for 12 hours + at a time? What if she needs me? Will she be OK without me? I know that she probably wont even notice my absence but I will sure notice hers! For the last year she has been with me every second of the day, I know 9 months of that time was inside but I still count that! On the other hand I am so grateful that I have a job in which I only work 2 days a week and still make decent money. I am SOOO grateful for a husband who has worked so hard and continues to work hard so that I can go back to work part-time. And I am so grateful for insurance (the main reason I am going back to work). I am also grateful to Tip that he has figured out his work schedule so that he is able to stay home with Lexi on the days that I work. I know that she will be OK without me, I more worry about me being OK without her! I miss her already!! I mean look at that face above, you'd miss her too! Speaking of the picture, Lexi has discovered her hand. She doesn't suck on her thumb, but tucks her thumb in between her first and middle finger and sucks on her knuckle. Its adorable, although I prefer the binky, which she still loves!!
Well say a prayer for me Monday morning that I'll survive my first day back (sniff, sniff)!