Thursday, March 15, 2012

mixed emotions...

Tomorrow is D-Day! Holy cow I can't believe that we have made it! The last 9 months really have flown by! I am kinda in shock that we will be adding to our little family tomorrow. I have such mixed emotions today. Don't get me wrong, I am SO SO SO excited for this little guy to come into our home. I love him so much already. I can't wait to meet him. To see what he looks like. To make sure he is ok and healthy.  I am also very nervous. I have no clue what to do with baby boys! I'm praying he is a good baby. I am praying he is a good nurser. I had no trouble nursing with Lexi. I hope that he is just as good.

I am also so nervous to leave Lexi. We have spent so much time together this week going to the park and playing outside. She didn't feel good all last week. She had a cough, ear infection and runny nose. She is feeling better but still super attached to me. I am worried about being away from her. I have never spent a night away from my little girl. I am worried about her waking up in the night and needing me. Even though she rarely wakes up at night and Tip will be home with her. I just worry. I know my Mom and sister will take good care of her while I am in the hospital, and she probably wont even miss me.  But I just worry! (stupid hormones).

I just hope and pray everything goes smooth as possible. I know that life will be crazy for us now but I can't wait as well.  I am lucky to have a very supportive, hands on husband who will help me a hundred percent!  I am grateful to all my family who are traveling to help me. Also to all my friends who have asked to help and have been supportive of me.

Ok, I've now vented and cried a little. I think I am ready to be a Mom of 2!

3 comments:

The Jackson Three said...

Oh my goodness, Nikki! I can't even imagine! It scares me just thinking about it. You are so amazing! I am so excited and happy for you! I think that I would be feeling very similar to you. Like I said...I can't even think about it yet! I'll be praying for you that you will be well and the baby boy will, too. Can't wait for pictures!!!!! Take care!

Meesha said...

Good luck! I'll be thinking of you and hoping all goes well.

The Ravsten's said...

You are going to be awesome. You are a wonderful mother of one and you will be an even better mother of two! I have faith in you! You can do it. I hope you are pushing hard right now and we welcome that little Ravy into the world. Glad to share a name with him. Love you guys tons and tons.